New Roads

Change is scary. I’ve heard it that many times and also come across situations where I would have preferred for things to not change. Nevertheless, it seems to be the only way to learn and grow. Change is hard. It pulls you out of your comfort zone and throws you into something you have never experienced before. I suppose that is why many people prefer to be where they are.

I, for one like change. However, I am also quite calculative. I like to know what it looks like to be on the other side. I need a preview of what I’m about to go through if the change happens. But not always, do we get that option, right?

 

I, currently am in one such phase of my life. I have taken a decision to step out of a corporate, 9 to 5, in which I have spent 14 years of my life to something new. This something new is way out of what I would have imagined to see myself in and yet somehow, here I am.

 

Why the sudden move? Well, I won’t say that it is sudden but, it is sure. I have always wanted to do something on my own but was never sure of what it was. Around the 12^th year of my work life, I felt that I didn’t belong anymore. I wasn’t learning anything new and wasn’t contributing either. I felt the nudge to get out. But what was I supposed to do? I have varied skills but not in a way that I can head out on my own. May be but, I wasn’t confident enough. I always thought that if you had to do something you should have studied and have a certificate to confirm that you have knowledge on the subject. This thought held me away from many opportunities. It set my confidence to low and I couldn’t move forward. Slowly, I learnt to let go of that belief and stepped out to learn more on the subject of my interest. Art.

 

The journey started with me attending any and every workshop that came up in the city. Down the year, I attended a workshop which changed my perception on how I was looking at creating my art. From there on, I came in contact with artists from across the world and made them my community. I have learnt a lot, since.

 

2 years down the line, here I am, with 3 days to go in my corporate job and ready to head out into the real world with my art. Sure, I have lots to learn in my art and in myself. I am not definite on where I am headed and not certain of how it is going to be and as scary as it may seem, I am excited and a little scared too, but grateful to be part of this wonderful journey called life.